Wednesday, January 5, 2011

NOSTALGIA -- CAPT AJIT VADAKAYIL


Below: 16 year old Officer Cadet Ajit Vadakayil


I call nostalgia QUANTUM REMINESCENCE.

The movie Titanic was a raging hit all over the world.  The movie became a hit NOT because of the technical brilliance, millions splurged and the grand scale cruise ship model .

It was about the most powerful emotion available to man,  after LOVE.

Love is indeed the world most powerful emotion in the world . A cancer patient in a street of two way love can cure himself, for it can reprogram his DNA blue print.

Now—

imagine an emotion of two potent forces , love and nostalgia combined.  It is a double whammy in reverse!

Now I want you to close your eyes and relive the last scene of the Hollywood movie Titanic, in your mann mandir.

The underwater dark murky decayed ruins of the grand ball room wooden  staircase , suddenly resurrects to its colorful old splendor and glory with the two young lovers in flesh and blood looking into each other’s eyes.


This was it—this powerful emotion was etched on the faces of the entire audience  as their poured out of the movie halls, man and woman, young and old. This was the genius of director James Cameroon.

Imagine this movie without this last potent scene—the movie would have been just one of those.

Nostalgia is an emotion , only a gifted few know how to exploit and manipulate.  

In the book “ God of small things “ Indian author Arundhati  Roy used reflective reminiscence , the way nostalgia uses the quantum construct.  Her editing of the book was jumbled , with ephemeral shattered fragments of disjointed memories strewn here and there in a clever manner. 

Imagine if she had narrated the ordinary story in tunnel vison mode—nobody would have cared to read it.   Events were woven magically like music .


My old school is now the Indian Government telephones building.  It was actually a rich man’s house. During rains we held the school assembly in the grand master bed room. When my wife goes to pay the telephone bills,  when I am on leave, I tag along. 

As soon as I enter the building , the past leads me by by pineal gland, evoking a flood , nay,  torrent of memories.

I explore and hang around at nooks and corners of the inner sanctums  allowing nostalgia to overtake my senses.  Our school had the best looking girls in town.


In this age of terrorism and bombs in India, getting caught in a wrong place of this sensitive building can prove very costly for me including prosecution and loss of passport.

But then just like love,  nostalgia makes you absolutely defenseless and vulnerable, as if you are outside the fabric of space time, behind the quantum screen.  You are a bit silly, and will not care for the severe consequences.

Your vigil is totally relaxed. You hardly notice how time flies. You are in the midst of a magical autobiographical quantum memory, with your subconscious calling the shots.

Nostalgia causes interaction with deep rooted emotions and feelings within the psyche, and hence has the power. It can be a difficult emotion and trigger sadness , at it is a bitter-sweet recall of past events and old emotions .

Nostalgia gives you a dull pain inside the heart , as you know there is no reverse gear— paradoxically  Utopia in reverse.  Old events can never happen again.  Old personalities can never be the same again.  A feeling of sadness and longing is not akin to pain, and resembles sorrow only as mist resembles the rain.



A quantum wave of presence swirls around another wave of loss, with only your consciousness collapsing it.  This is way different from sentiments and remembrance.


Nostalgia is a Greek word – nostos meaning home , and algos meaning pain. The literal meaning is grossly misplaced as nostalgia is home sickness only for the insensitive .


I love to sit amidst  old ruins and feel the delicious pain, all the while conjuring up images of a grand past. Some magic inside the subconscious mind -- past becomes present for that fleeting moment , with emotional chords doing a sweet twang!. 


I do believe that this planet will wake up to the clouds of mystic nostalgia , and “ ruins tourism” will take off in a loveless future world .  There is no surer trigger for this bitter sweet emotion.

It is healthy too , as looking backwards for a while , with respect and awe , formats the mind rendering it fitter for the present and the future.


CAPT AJIT VADAKAYIL
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3 comments:

  1. Sir,pls post on deja vu also. As like everybody i have also experienced it so many times. And i m facsinated by it.
    Thanx

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  3. Captain I noticed your picture on which you were in school that your head looks very much more developed and bigger than that of your classmates, I guess that's one factor of your deadly IQ. Cheers!

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